First off, thank you to my Mom, she's wonderful! I'd honestly be lost without you right now. I wish I could express how much help you've been to me these last 9 months.<3Second off, Thank you Chris, you're a great friend. I'm so thankful to have you in my life. You mean a lot to me! We've had a lot of good times together, and I know there is more to come. Thanks for coming to pick Mom and me up this morning (1am) from the hospital, that was awesome of you!<3So yeah I had to go into the hospital last night because Saturday and part of Sunday I was having what felt like period cramping and then it turned into contractions at about 2pm. I was in the hospital for 2 hours or so and they confirmed I was having contractions...as if I didn't know that! lol. They were 5 minutes apart pretty much the whole time, until they finally slowed off and then stopped completely. They did an internal and I'm not leaking anything out of the ordinary as they said and my cervix is still closed. However it is starting to soften. So now I'm on complete and total bed rest (their words not mine). I have a doctors appointment tomorrow (Tuesday) so I‘ll see what he says. I only have 16 days left before I am due... If I have 10 or more contractions in an hour, begin to leak or start spotting I'm to go into the hospital immediately. 
Yay! It’s so exciting, but so nerve racking at the same damn time… I’ll keep everyone updated the best that I can :)Tuesday March 11th, 2008Okay so the doctors went well, he said Im 2cm dilated, but my water hasn't broke yet so it's the waiting game. I've been having more contractions (braxton hicks), but they're not close enough together yet to go in. He said she could be here any time now...Wow, so exciting!!! heh. She's a healthy weight so far (5lbs 14oz) so there's nothing to worry about.I'll update more later when I know more!Tuesday March 18th, 2008So once again the doctors today went well. He said everything is just fine. He told me not to travel to much (I can't leave the city) as she could be here any time. He said he was thinking Sunday would be my day..So that's only 4 days early, but yet so exciting!I didn't think it was possible to be so excited about someone I don't even know yet! I love her so much already.
So, make her laugh a little and help her get through.She used to cry and no one knew. Help her out and treat her right. It's been awhile since she's smiled so bright. Show her that not all guys lie, and be the one that keeps her eyes dry.__________________________________________________________________If you see me Smile..It's not because I forgot about You. It's because I got tired of Crying over You...If you see me living Again...It's not because I Moved on..It's because I hate the fact that...You can live Without me...
Thanks to everybody who’s been there for me.It’s just the beginning and now we have to push to the very end.It won't take long; just take it one step at a time.I love you all, every single one of you that have made an effort. You know who you true friends are when you go through something like this, it may take a lot but I will get through it all. I promised myself, my life is about to change…
It’s life people. You learn to deal with it. You accept things that come your way regardless the weight to carry.I have dealt with so much in my life and still am.But faith and courage is what gets me by each and every day. I believe that we all have purpose in this life to live. I don't want to be seen as the one left behind, I want to push on forward, life is so precious…Soon enough I’ll be holding a little miracle in my arms.
Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication.Remember all things are possible for those who believe
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Don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble and fall because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Don't look back. Maybe you'll get more than you could have ever imagined. Who knows where life will take you. the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination…
You honestly were my biggest mistake. I realize now how shitty you actually treated me; and how much of an arrogant son of a bitch you were. Wow! Almost eight months later and I’m finally realizing that I could do so much better than you, sorry, I already have someone much better than you, I have my daughter and myself. I think maybe you feel the need to treat other people like shit, to make up for your lack of intelligence and self confidence. Either that or you think so highly of yourself that everyone else is below you. I think you should sit down and think for a second, about what a deadbeat you really are, and about what you are actually doing with your life. Because it seems to me, that you don’t amount to even half of what you think you do, and that you never will…
I’m Christy, and some days, I wish I was a dandelion. I’m an extremely pessimistic person. it happens. I’m a single momma, and damn proud to be. I love my daughter, more than anything in the universe. I don't believe in friendships, nobody should be that stupid. I’m definitely not the same Christy you think you use to know, but I’m totally better now than ever. These are the happiest days of my life.
I’m a mommy, to a beautiful girl named McKayla, born April 6th, 2008, 12:42am. She's my pride and joy, I love her with every piece of me.She makes my life worth living, she's perfect, and we're perfect together, just me and McKayla against the world. I love being both mommy and daddy, it makes the bond so much stronger. I love watching her grow, and learn, everyday. She's so smart, and so strong, especially for her age. She makes every single day amazing. I just wish the growing up part would slow down!
