I'm more complicated than you'd think, and it took me a while to figure out who I am - think it's easy? Try me. Ask me anything- I'm a walking contradiction. I swear.
Heh, anyway...
About me… About me... About me... Well, I'm not intellectual, or very intelligent. Some like to assume this- why? I don't know. But they do. Hmm, maybe it's the big nose. That seems to make people think I'm full of the smarts. But NOPE. I AM, however, very understanding. It's something about myself that I'm incredibly proud of, along with my ability to (if given the chance) hold a conversation for more than two seconds. Unless I feel super nervous. Then, I'll either talk TOO much- and about stupid things- OR I won't talk enough and be super, hella awkward. Both are extremely embarrassing and I hate feeling like I wish I had a big giant "STOP" button on my face to press and keep me from talking. I like photography, and im buying a new camera, just for fun. I want to be smart. I want to be someone who gets the A, or the B, or... the B+. That would be nice. I also want to be the person who has more than one talent. But so far, I'm only beating that goal by one more. I have TWO talents. Those two are: being a wonderful Mommy to a beautiful baby girl, and being a great listener.
I'm a hopeless romantic above all. I believe in true love, and I know it's lame and sappy and all that jazz, but honestly...I mean, what sounds more appealing than waking to pebbles on the window, then being romantically swept off your feet to a beach somewhere and having a moonlit picnic? Ok...maybe that's a little too far. But I love romance. I love it. I love the idea of having someone to hug and kiss, and...love, it's just a nice idea. Of course, we're all lonely sometimes, and then we're all told to focus on friends- but there are things that friends can't bring you. Like that feeling in your gut that makes you think your insides are going to explode with butterflies and incredible happiness- ever felt it? I have. And it's great. But... also sort of lonely if you can't EMBRACE that feeling. Friends, though, are a huge part of my life, and having the ones I have makes me incredibly proud. I am a strange person, and they like me anyway- which means a lot. I do realize that times change...but it gets hard sometimes when friends change so drastically in a short amount of time- so if I've ever brought it to your attention, or seem sad, then it's no biggie. I'll just deal with it, because that's another thing I realize- we all just have to deal with it. Back to the whole romance thing, I am incredibly taken. And yes, I'm very happy. Don't mind me, it's just how it is - Heh, no worries, it tickles more than anything (damn butterflies).
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