..:Secret:.. Monday, December 1, 2008

Everyday I look at myself and see someone different from whom I want to be. A lot of the time I do things I know aren't right to make others happy or just to live a little but I really don't know why I did it in the end. I'm an obsessive-compulsive person, and I lie sometimes, But what's funny is I hate lairs because I've been hurt by them so badly in the past. I really want to change who I am but I always find myself getting worse instead of getting better. My life took such a bad turn a short while ago that it made me an indefinite bitch; I don't like being that person. I hurt people I love and I don't want to, this is only a secret cause I've never told anyone, but I think anyone who's been my friend for a really long time already knows.